Wednesday, March 15, 2006
Wow im getting good at this!

Hey ya'll!!

Wow I can't believe that I'm actually writing here again within the same month!lol.I blame feb coz it's not long enough only 28 days and that's why i never even wrote in feb.Well to all who don't know, it's my birthday in a week and 2days (Fri 24th) so I really can't wait.~Anyway~

Today I had the start of my art exam, all day.It wasn't actually as bad as I had anticipated because I did get quite worried and anxious before hand, I've hardly slept between Sunday and today.So being in the same room 4 6hours beside the same people looking at white material and needles is rather boring and did drive me crazy...wait until u see the photo my friend took of me I have scissors in my hand and look like I'm totally insane!But I survived and I know full well that it wasn't my strength and effort alone that got me through.Of course my savior was there helping me coz boy did I need it.But unfortunately I didn't think Jesus was with me at all the few days prior....basically I had lack of faith big style, I got stuck in a rut but hopefully I'm back on track.And someone reminded me of this and to them I am so grateful coz their words really spoke and sunk in!So thank u (u know who u r).

So of course I had SU today. I had baked a chocolate cake and it seemed 2 draw a couple of people in..woohoo!My plan worked.I had 2 open 2days meeting in prayer which ok I pretty much screwed up, but Im sure people forgot about it coz the cake was a good distraction.Although I wouldn't admit this anywhere else i did feel like a slight hypocrite because, I have had lack of faith and hope recently (i suppose of the tracks a bit) and im sure the rest of the club are getting on good in their relationship with God.But there I was slightly struggling to hang on and opening 4 every1 in prayer.

I was just thinking maybe a good way to try and help me focus on my relationship with God would be to start writing songs again, even though my lyrics can be pretty shaky sometimes I think it would help me vision again how awesome God really is.There you go I think I'll have 2 snatch a few minutes out my day to do that now. Sorry that was rather random!

Well I think that is us pretty much up 2 date!I just want 2 leave u all with a verse that came 2 me on Tuesday night....

"Let us,then,feel very sure that we can come before God's throne where there is grace.There we can receive mercy and grace to help us when we need it." Hebrews 4v16

I hope u all are doing well and if u have any tips 4 me on how 2 get back on track feel free 2 let me know.Or even better if 1 of u r goin through the same thing then talk 2 me coz we can strengthen each other!Talk 2 ya'll soon

Lvya's as always...but some1 loves u more than I ever could!
God Bless
Rach xXx