Tuesday, March 28, 2006
Where am I?
Hey....were are you all???I'm sitting here pouring my guts out 4 u guys and u all seem 2 have disappeared off the face of the earth....whats up with that??LOLI am finally 16!YES...I don't know why I'm so chuffed at this prospect but I am lol.I had a great weekend with my wee chicks from school (sorry ash and courts 4 ur pointless journey 2 Starbucks) and guess what I had a caterpillar cake how amazing YUMMY!
Ooo have 2 tell ya'll that my art is nearly complete so im really happy about that lol,weight lifted!woohoo!!But I'm slightly freaking about everything else..why are there so many pressures put on us nowadays?It's really not fair and I'm finding it rather hard 2 handle.
I don't see how im going 2 be prepared 4 my exams and with so many things going on outside school its so hard 2 keep up.This also means that my relationship with God is suffering (big style).I mean I can't even hear what he wants me 2 do anymore,where he wants me 2 go,what he wants me 2 do!!And I feel helpless because what can i do 4 God?I have a routine that never changes,(and I really want 2 break the mould!)so how can I do meaningful work 4 him with all this going on?I found myself calling out 2 him last night asking where am i?I don't know what I'm doing at the mo...And through all this I know it is the small things like reading my bible and praying constantly, are the things that I should be doing and Im not doing!But I don't know about other people but I find it really hard 2 read the bible (not coz I can't read) but u know what I mean?So if anyone has any advice please do not hesitate 2 let me know ur thoughts coz I really need any help or advice I can get at the moment!Anyway thats my moaning over 4 now...
Its 10 days 2 my formal!WOOHOO!!I cannot wait but I'm slightly worried about my dress only seen it once (coz its being made) so I hope the finishing product is good!lol.I worry 2 much really dont i?lol this is the only place that I'll admit this so keep it hush hush...wouldn't wanna damage my street cred!
Well anyway gotta go and get stuck in2 revision wahey the fun is never ending, thanks 4 listening/reading if any of u do anymore?You're prob all sick of my moaning but sure....talk soon
Lvyas all
Rach xXx
God Bless
On 19:45, Rach J let go.
