Tuesday, March 28, 2006
Where am I?

Hey....were are you all???I'm sitting here pouring my guts out 4 u guys and u all seem 2 have disappeared off the face of the earth....whats up with that??LOL

I am finally 16!YES...I don't know why I'm so chuffed at this prospect but I am lol.I had a great weekend with my wee chicks from school (sorry ash and courts 4 ur pointless journey 2 Starbucks) and guess what I had a caterpillar cake how amazing YUMMY!

Ooo have 2 tell ya'll that my art is nearly complete so im really happy about that lol,weight lifted!woohoo!!But I'm slightly freaking about everything else..why are there so many pressures put on us nowadays?It's really not fair and I'm finding it rather hard 2 handle.
I don't see how im going 2 be prepared 4 my exams and with so many things going on outside school its so hard 2 keep up.This also means that my relationship with God is suffering (big style).I mean I can't even hear what he wants me 2 do anymore,where he wants me 2 go,what he wants me 2 do!!And I feel helpless because what can i do 4 God?I have a routine that never changes,(and I really want 2 break the mould!)so how can I do meaningful work 4 him with all this going on?I found myself calling out 2 him last night asking where am i?I don't know what I'm doing at the mo...And through all this I know it is the small things like reading my bible and praying constantly, are the things that I should be doing and Im not doing!But I don't know about other people but I find it really hard 2 read the bible (not coz I can't read) but u know what I mean?So if anyone has any advice please do not hesitate 2 let me know ur thoughts coz I really need any help or advice I can get at the moment!Anyway thats my moaning over 4 now...

Its 10 days 2 my formal!WOOHOO!!I cannot wait but I'm slightly worried about my dress only seen it once (coz its being made) so I hope the finishing product is good!lol.I worry 2 much really dont i?lol this is the only place that I'll admit this so keep it hush hush...wouldn't wanna damage my street cred!

Well anyway gotta go and get stuck in2 revision wahey the fun is never ending, thanks 4 listening/reading if any of u do anymore?You're prob all sick of my moaning but sure....talk soon

Lvyas all
Rach xXx
God Bless

Friday, March 17, 2006
I randomly wanted 2 post this

Wednesday, March 15, 2006
Wow im getting good at this!

Hey ya'll!!

Wow I can't believe that I'm actually writing here again within the same month!lol.I blame feb coz it's not long enough only 28 days and that's why i never even wrote in feb.Well to all who don't know, it's my birthday in a week and 2days (Fri 24th) so I really can't wait.~Anyway~

Today I had the start of my art exam, all day.It wasn't actually as bad as I had anticipated because I did get quite worried and anxious before hand, I've hardly slept between Sunday and today.So being in the same room 4 6hours beside the same people looking at white material and needles is rather boring and did drive me crazy...wait until u see the photo my friend took of me I have scissors in my hand and look like I'm totally insane!But I survived and I know full well that it wasn't my strength and effort alone that got me through.Of course my savior was there helping me coz boy did I need it.But unfortunately I didn't think Jesus was with me at all the few days prior....basically I had lack of faith big style, I got stuck in a rut but hopefully I'm back on track.And someone reminded me of this and to them I am so grateful coz their words really spoke and sunk in!So thank u (u know who u r).

So of course I had SU today. I had baked a chocolate cake and it seemed 2 draw a couple of people in..woohoo!My plan worked.I had 2 open 2days meeting in prayer which ok I pretty much screwed up, but Im sure people forgot about it coz the cake was a good distraction.Although I wouldn't admit this anywhere else i did feel like a slight hypocrite because, I have had lack of faith and hope recently (i suppose of the tracks a bit) and im sure the rest of the club are getting on good in their relationship with God.But there I was slightly struggling to hang on and opening 4 every1 in prayer.

I was just thinking maybe a good way to try and help me focus on my relationship with God would be to start writing songs again, even though my lyrics can be pretty shaky sometimes I think it would help me vision again how awesome God really is.There you go I think I'll have 2 snatch a few minutes out my day to do that now. Sorry that was rather random!

Well I think that is us pretty much up 2 date!I just want 2 leave u all with a verse that came 2 me on Tuesday night....

"Let us,then,feel very sure that we can come before God's throne where there is grace.There we can receive mercy and grace to help us when we need it." Hebrews 4v16

I hope u all are doing well and if u have any tips 4 me on how 2 get back on track feel free 2 let me know.Or even better if 1 of u r goin through the same thing then talk 2 me coz we can strengthen each other!Talk 2 ya'll soon

Lvya's as always...but some1 loves u more than I ever could!
God Bless
Rach xXx

Thursday, March 02, 2006
Just a really quick note

Woohoo!I havent broken my leg...I just pulled 6 ligaments in my knee.Well anyway just wanted 2 say please don't try looking for our SU website coz its closing down sorry!lol i g2g now sorry talk soon tho.
lvyas all
God Bless
Rach xXx

Wednesday, March 01, 2006
My first day of spring!

~Hey all!~
How r we?Im rather tired now as I will explain why later.I can not believe it is March already!So that means its my birthday in 24days!Remember that!!LOL.Well my day started off ok today I was tired but i mean thats normal.School was just school.I had SU and it was pretty good and we've got a website now..how funky so check it out im not sure of the address off the top of my head but just type in google (in lower case) shssu,that should lead you 2 it....wait i just tried that and it doesnt work I'll let u no at a later date what the addy is.

So yea its countdown now until I do my art GCSE its in 2weeks 2day how fun!Seriously I am advising people 2 not do art there is far to much coursework unless u really have a passion 4 art then dont pick it trust me!lol of course i have a passion 4 it but i just like doing it 4 myself.Anyway thats a whole load of blabber.

So we are planning 2 put on this really cool concert in September hopefully so I'd be greatful if you would all pray as we prepare to do this and esp. pray that we (I) find the confidence 2 actually do this for God.

Well I'm saving the 'best' story til last....so why was my 1st of march so terrible?I was heading out 2 band practice and I wasn't thinking and I walked out the door and slipped on the ice outside my door and fell right on my bottom and my leg landed a funny way like a 90 degree angle out to the right (it was my right leg) so I lay there shouting 4 my mum.Finally I got back in and ive been sitting on the sofa ever since.My mum wanted me 2 get it x-rayed but I couldn't face going outside again so I'm goin 2 take my next plan of action 2morro.

So Im going 2 head 2 bed because I am so tired!I'm still praying for you all and I'm hoping that all of you are keeping well and be careful in the snow/ice!!

Love ya all
Rachel
xXx