Thursday, April 13, 2006
Green with Jealousy?
Hey ya'll!How r ya's?I can't believe it is finally Easter,how mad?It's pretty wick at the same time tho coz I'm gna have 2 cram so much revision in over this week and a bit.Agghh!!!Not worried about most subjects well not as much as French I hate it with a passion and my oral is the Thursday we go back 2 school!again aaggghh!!lol.Do you know...there is so much 2 do and so little time 2 do it in??So these past few days have been rather crazy...I've been getting my art course finished off and I even went in2 skool yday (overtime!honestly child labour) 2 try and get things finished off and I still have a couple of pages 2 do and I worked on it all day yday and 2day.
So whats with the title?Well i have 2 admit that deep down the green eyed monster has reappeared.(translated means im feeling jealous). Why?well because people that I am close 2 (my closest friends) seem 2 be far away from me.It feels as if they are all hanging out, going off with each other,chatting away.....with out me.Basically I'm feeling really left out. So im left wondering what is it that I don't have that other people do and other people want??Humor,good looks,good figure,confidence etc?I know I should be saying but, God has made me the way he wants me and there is a reason 4 it, and he loves me just the way I am. But when u tell urself and others tell you, the opposite everyday then its pretty hard 2 believe!I feel tired,misused,misplaced and rejected.I'm not sure that Im making much sense but it helps me 2 write this all down,whatever comes 2 my head whether its sense or nonsense!
Sorry that this had 2 be boring and depressing!
Talk 2 ya'll soon
Rach
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On 19:11, Rach J let go.
