Saturday, May 27, 2006
Hurt (song/poem)
I'm lyin on the floorMy closest companions are bears
How come the world can't accept me?
I know they shouldn't matter
But they do to me
I live for their opinions and thoughts
Why does life have to be so hard?
Stress,drama,tramua,pressure
Why can't it all go away?
People try to tell you it'll be ok
Sometimes I convience myself that it's true
Then I break again, and who will put me together?
I'm scared of me,of you,of this life
Take me to a safe place far from here
Away from the hurt,pain and brokeness
Why can't they love me,for me?
Paint me a picture of something beautiful
Is that even possible?
'Coz everything looks black and shades of grey
I feel frayed,lost and invisible
Is there even anyone there?
My body aches all over
What will take away this pain?
I need a healing touch
But you're no where to be found
How could you leave me to face
the world myself?
Look into my eyes,tell me you need me
Show me where you want me to go
Pick me up from the floor, dust me off
I know I'm hopeless but point me in the
right direction
Stay with me,hold me tight and never let go!
Wednesday, May 24, 2006
*Something new*
Hey there!So how r we all?And I am now convienced that there is no1 there because my past 3 enties have been ignored.Shame on u people!Aww I miss ya's all,lol.Therefore, I am going 2 try something different 2 see if I can revive u's a wee bit!?!If that is at all possible?But I feel like blabberin a wee bit 1st....what a surprise?You guys have know idea how relieved I feel 2night,because I had my 1st gcse 2day and it went fine. I think I answered every question 2 the best of my ability so there's not really much else I can do.I'm so glad 2 get the 1st 1 out of the way coz i already feel more focused on the rest of my exams. Now that I've been in the situation and know what 2 expect.Roll on another 9-10...ooo the joy they bring!!lol not!How are everyone else's exams goin??I can't believe I'll be free for the Summer on Friday 16th June.Wow, so early and the very next day I jet off 2 Phoniex,Arazona (USA).
Ok, now 4 the something new.Well generally when I blog on here its always like a diary entry so I've decided I'll show (as in type here) you some things I scribble down in my actually diary.lol.....yes, rather a big step!Ya'll should feel really priviledged.Ok, so a couple of times I have tried to write songs (emphasis on tried!!) so at long last I have decided I will post them here and let u guys tell me what u think.
The 1st one is called Shine in me, the reason I'm sharing this one is because my wee dear Cate said that this was her favourite,she has even started 2 write music with it and we have an idea how we want it 2 sound but the lyrics still need a lot of work.lol.I cannot stress this enough,these lyrics are rough.But here goes...
God reign in my heart
and soul
Show me what is
right and what your will is
for me
(Chorus) Where should I go?
What should I do?
Make me shine, Lord
Glow like the stars you created
Let people notice that I am shining
Shining for you!
You made me just from dust
You created each person uniquely
You reign in my heart
I love you
(Chrous) Where should I go?
What should I do?
Make me shine, Lord
Glow like the stars you created
Let people notice that I am shining
Shining for you!
(Pre chorus) Face the fate
Despite what the world thinks
If you love God
Then let your light shine!
Chorus again
You swear, you laugh,you joke and clap
You're always in but always out
Do you help?Or make it worse?
Who do you follow,the leader of the group?
(Chorus) In the day you're different
You don't care and you can't bare God
But the shadow of the night transforms you
Then you're Gods'
Night is here
You shead a tear
For those who are hurt
And cannot work
You want to help
But you're afraid of the people of the day
Who critise you
And laugh at the risen one!
(Chrous) In the day you're different
You don't care and you can't bare God
But the shadow of the night transforms you
Then you're Gods'
(Bridge/Ending) Where do you go from here?
Reach out your hand and you'll be saved by grace!
The Lord is salvation
So find your faith
And trust the living God!
In my defence I wrote this during an English class a few months ago. And I was just jotting down what I saw around me. But it really doesn't have a song structure?!?So there you go, this just proves that I care about you all so much that I would share something like this with you all!!lol.
Well I suppose I should really go and do something 'constructive' i.e revise.So I'll talk 2 u all later and I hope everything is going ok with everyone.Remember I'm here if you need me and I'm looking for any excuse 2 get me out of revising!!lol.
Lvya's as always
Rach
xXx
Wednesday, May 10, 2006
End of an era!
Hey ya'll!!Ok I can't start bloggin til I say omgoodness...how amazing is the weather???It's so beautiful.Is it just me or is it way easier 2 appreciate life and creation when it's sunny and warm like it has been?I have even got sunburnt 2day and yesterday!Woops should have been wearing sunscreen.It really feels like summer has come early, and that makes it so hard 2 try and study!
Yes chums you've guessed it....I got off 4 study leave.I've been 'off' since Monday.Whats with the commas?Well I have been in school yesterday and today so it really doesn't feel like I've left SHS.I mean it has not hit me at all that I'm not really a student there!When we were told I just smiled and even lookin at my other buddies who were pretty upset I still didn't feel like crying.lol!!So it will hit me sometime when I least expect it...woohoo!NOT.
So because of all this happening, I've been thinking and I've realised.....I DON'T WANT TO GROW UP!!!Right now more than ever I wish Neverland was real. (Peter Pan-you never have 2 grow up).So I'm not that siked about being 16 anymore eihter of course being 16 has advantages...but I want 2 hide out in my room and hope that I don't get any older!It's too scarey.I mean very soon my exams will be over,then summer will be over then if my results go well then I'll be back in a new school,which I still have not decided.New people,new surroundings,new rountine....just an undiscovered world of scareyness!People who are in grammar schools right now are so lucky coz u's will more than likely be in the same school for another 2 years.And you know what?Will I even be able 2 do my A levels?Coz I have been finding the work 4 GCSE's tough enough 2 keep on top of, how on earth will I cope with A levels?Plus I really don't want 2 go 2 a different school from Sara (bestest buddie) coz she's such a rock and I've got so used 2 being in school with her!!And I'd miss her 2 much.Agghhh!!!!!!
As well as my classes coming 2 an end in SHS, so have my SU days. Sara and I took it 2day 4 the last time!aww so sadRather disappointed as well though coz I felt it didn't go 2 well!Mrs Laird made a wee speech and everything and then gave us a present!It was so lovely!But no gift could ever top the advice and kindness she has shown me over my past 5 years at SHS...so Mrs Laird if by some off chance u read this thank you so much for everything....don't know what I'm goin 2 do without ya!
Sorry ya'll I have went on here quite a lot!Tell me if you want me 2 write less,coz that is maybe why none of u are communicating with me anymore coz you shout yikes when u see how much I've typed!!lol.Do keep in contact though coz I want 2 know what you guys are going through right now!Talk 2 ya'll soon!!
Lvyas lots like jelly tots!
God Bless
Rach
xXx