Monday, January 22, 2007
Just a little....
....note to say......that......I'm ok!Lol. Yes I realise there has been a lack of blogging from me recently which I'm sure you've loved! I've been working on a post for like 2 weeks now but everytime I revisit it it only gets a couple of sentences longer and then I quit! I haven't really been in the mood to blog. And I guess you guys are gonna have to wait til the weekend or possibley 'til next week or the week after for a formal post. 'Coz I'm heading off to Belguim 2morrow until Friday. Then I have 3 essays to write for Monday and then I'll have work to catch up on seeing I'll have been away! O the joy!
Don't worry you're all still in my thoughts even though I'm not communicating! Lol.
Have a great week! It better not snow while I'm away...but I may see some anyway!
O, I arranged an appointment to visit Centre for Youth Ministry in Oxford on Feb 22nd so that should be fun and give me a little more insight to whats expected and the whole uni life thing!
Much love & peace
Rach
xXx
Labels: blogging, time, trips, work
Thursday, January 04, 2007
Scared and Confused!
Hey....So I had really planned for an earlyesh night 2night! But no of course my brain for a change has decided to go into over load! I hate this. Coz it's one of those nights where you've had enough late nights and just really feel like your going to keel over. But I've been in bed since 11.30 and I have had no such luck in sleeping. Therefore, I've resorted to making hot chocolate with marshmallows and my favorite cookies....M&S white chocolate one's-yum!So here's why I'm feasting and not nodding into dream world....
Ok........so I'm pretty scared about what happens next. I mean I haven't a clue what I would like to do after my A-levels. But I have made a great effort by fooling myself into thinking that I do know what I want. If you get me at all? I mean for ages I have thought about graphic design or youth work/ministry whatever. Now I'm really not sure. Meanwhile my dad is chipping in my ear about going into property...being a property developer/realter....but I'm not so sure if I can do that either?!? And when I was in Birmingham before Christmas and I was talking to Dolf and Sharon (woman who works for/with my dad) both said my dad has high hopes for me. Yea, way to load the pressure onto a 16 year old. Another thing.....when I go back to school we are starting the UCAS procedure....an experience that I have heard is not good. From other peoples comments I think I would rather pull my hair out, for the time I'm in careers class rather than have to participate! Also I know that my careers teachers are going to add even more pressure....hey! guess what they've succeeded already and we haven't even started to fill the forms in!!! I don't have a clue about uni's or whether I even want to go to uni. Another idea to just throw into the mix is that Sara and I discussed business ideas....shared them with our parents who laughed on our first comments then fired all the negatives at us.
I mean what is with that? They want us to decide what we want to do but when we make the effort to decide it's thrown back in our faces!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!
Another thing that is bugging me is the fact we have ONE life! I can only do so much for God here and I don't want to get into heaven by the skin of my teeth. But right now that looks pretty certain. Why couldn't life be easier? Why couldn't we discover the answers sooner?
Yea, and another thing. This year I'm going to lose at least two of my bestest friends. Catherine and Lynn. More than likely they will be heading off to uni in England. And that totally SUCKS! It may sound dramatic but I actually don't know what I'll do without them!?! I think I'll end up going into a state of depression...no joke. Catherine is the only person I have found on this earth so far who completely understands me. She's my angel. Granted she is a pain in the ass sometimes..but hey so am I! *tears* I'm not feeling the happy new year feeling.
Ok, so I had also like pretty much decided that I was going to apply for a job in Monsoon. I printed off the form and everything. Then before I tried sleeping I read my bible notes (ucb) and it was about growth and how not to rush it. And about how God will provide me with more responsibility when I'm ready. So then I'm thinking does that mean I shouldn't apply for this job? Will I not be able to handle this on top of my school work? One line that hit me was...
'So don't just desire something because it looks good in somebody else's life.'
That could be hinted at me because my friends around me have jobs. And I suppose I'm fed up of not having one and them asking how I get money and stuff and making me out to be daddy's wee girl...which I'm not. And I won't moouch of my dad- hinted at you Miss McKeown...I know you think that!
Aww right now all I want to do is jump on a plane....preferably a private jet....which of course my dad would provide! Ehh yea I wish. And head off to Canada...Montreal and hide in my log cabin. It makes me feel like no one knows where I am. Love it. Boy I've let out steam in that place. Look at it....it's beautiful. Grrrr!!! Tell me o please tell me why life has to be so darn hard and filled with stupid decisions? Right now its tempting to let someone else to decide for me i.e my family.Labels: Careers, Future, life, UCAS
Monday, January 01, 2007
My best of 2006
Hey hey!So I've decided to review this year. In the areas that I love. Music.Film.Books.
These where not nesscessariley released in 2006 but they meant something to me in 2006!Lol!
Music
Albums:
U218 Singles-All the oldies all on the one cd. Love it!
Radio 1's live lounge-Featuring many of my favorite artists with some very strange and bazzar covers but amazing!One word to sum it up...goosebumps!
U2-How to dismantle and atomic bomb- Masterpiece. We all know they are great I don't need to tell you all that!
Snow Partrol-Eyes Open-Favorite song definately Chasing cars!Although I think I still prefer their Final Straw album!
Third Day-Wherever you are-Very encouraging.I have to say not as good as Wire in terms of musical content.But the lyrics will blow you away and make you smile!
Nerina Pallot-Fires-this girl has attitude.Lyrics make you think.
KT Tunstall-Eye to the telescope-her voice is gorgeous.Relaxing.But fun to dance to.Lol!
Gavin DeGraw-Chariot-Fun.Beautiful love songs.
Bon Jovi-Have a nice day-Cool.I love Jon Bon Jovi!Obvious reason why this is here then.
Secondhand Serenade-I found this guy on myspace and bought the album.Its beautiful. Acoustic melodies vs. Alto. His harmonies are to die for!
There have been many other singles and albums not metioned....I could go on forever...Such as Paolo Nutuni,James Morrison,Jamie Cullum,Beyonce,Edwain McCain etc etc!
There have been many other singles and albums not metioned....I could go on forever...Such as Paolo Nutuni,James Morrison,Jamie Cullum,Beyonce,Edwain McCain etc etc!
Ya know I don't even have a top ten for films!
I only have 5 so far!Lol
I can't seem to think....
Films...
X-Men 3-The last stand-Hugh Jackman is to die for.But come on Halle Berry cannot act-I think I could do better!
The Lake House-For once we see a soft side to Keanu Reeves and his co-star is perfect, Sandra Bullock. A film that is not easy to understand at first glance. But after 10 views you know the script!
Pride and Prejudice-Guys you should watch this to see how to treat women.You are meant to stand when we enter a room and bow!!I want to go back to this time. I love Jane Austen! This is amazing. I fall in love with England everytime I watch it. I am going to visit all the houses used as sets on this film....one day!
Da Vinci Code-I think it is good to see other people's understanding of past happenings.Interesting. Plus the night I went to see it I went to see X-men then ended up going to see this after! Loved it. Double bill you could say?!
Just Like Heaven-Ok it is a chick flick. I admit it. But I love Mark Ruffalo!
Books....
Bible- beginning to learn and understand it better I guess?!?
Kim book 1,diary of a teenager-Melody Carlson (got the rest of the series for Christmas)
Sharon Osbourne-Extreme autobiography
Walk on-The Spiritual Journey of U2-Steven Stockman
U2 by U2
Help!Im a Student Leader-Doug Fields...funny
The Chase-scarey.interseting.life changing.
I think that is me...Sorry if the layout is messed up but its late and I can't figure out how to fix it right now!
I can't believe it is 2007 already!
I hope you all have a good one!
Much love & peace
Rach
xXx
Labels: Books, Bye 2006, Films, Music