Saturday, March 17, 2007
All that you can't leave behind...
So I've realised that I'm on a journey. But not any ordinary journey, one that can be the most dangerous but also the safest at the same time. One that scares the hell out of me everyday but at the same time gives me a feeling of peace. It's a road that is hard to make out, there are sharp corners, twists, turns, bright lights (lol i hate it when people don't dip their lights!!) Lol. But one thing that is required for this journey is NO luggage.
I just have to be me. Gods' creation.
That's because I'm on a journey with God and if I depend on him... I'll finally reach my destination and hopefully my destiny?
But lately I've lost sight of my destination. I've been questioning why the hell am I even on this journey, and how have I got this far?
But this is ok. I think I'm growing. I'm finding my own way of thinking, instead of being spoon fed all the time. I'm growing out of my fake vener. I'm no longer going to 'stay inside the lines'. I want to be salt and light and if people don't like it why should I care? I'm here to bring glory to God's name not my own. I need to remember that I'm living for God...NOT people!
There are so many questions that I have but I need to think about it all first. Coz it's taken me a month to even talk 2 people (other than Catherine) about all this. (I find it quite difficult, I'd rather pretend everything is ok.) And I feel guilty about some things, but I'm trying to get rid of it before it eats me up.
So there are so many things right now that I feel I can't leave behind but over the next while I'm really going to have to leave coz otherwise I won't be able to move forward.
Thank you to the people who listened to me tonight and gave awesome advice! You really are gifts from heaven and I really appreciate all your help. I really hope I can repay you all sometime. I love you's!
Sorry for reference to U2 again but come on guys we all know they kick ass. You just have to listen and search for the meaning in their songs and you'll fall in love with them, trust me!
Labels: destiny, God, journey, life, U2
On 23:10, Rach J let go.
