Saturday, May 12, 2007
Family
As I'm getting older I understand so much more and the past two years I've realised my family isn't perfect.Today more than ever I know this is a fair, just and true comment. I guess it's because people aren't perfect. Duh!
My sister and I just had an arguement. That's the only way we communicate...there is no loving relationship between us at all. I mean I do love her....but she infurates me mainly because I see the potential of who she could be but is too stubborn to be. She really hurts me more than she knows or cares....with the one cold hard look, she tells me she doesn't love me.
We don't do anything together. She's never here. She's always at her good for nothing boyfriend's house. But when we manage to go out for lunch or whatever it's only because I've bribed her by saying I would pay.
One of the main problems is that she isn't a Christian. And I don't know how to act around her coz I know she'll judge me. But she seems to be incapable of actually just being nice. This is something I find hard coz I feel I care for so many people so it's natural for me to go out of my way to do things for other people, no matter the consequence. But she is totally opposite. Sometimes I think she is tormenting us for fun. With her smug little smile.
Don't get me wrong I'm not trying to make her look bad to make me look good. Not at all.
I'm just stuck and don't know what to do.
I guess I should really talk to God more about it!
I'd really appreciate your prayers. As awful as it sounds Rebecca has caused our family but especially my parents a lot of heartache. And I hate it when my mum cries.
Thanks.
On 16:24, Rach J let go.
